restless,maybe?

Assalamualaikumm..
Good day Earthlings :)
P/S:I am not an alien,thank you..

To tell you the truth..I'm not in the mood to blog now...I'm not tired of it,just..maybe I was getting worried of many things..At the same time..I'm not sure myself.. =.="

Actually,manyak mau post..but..nantilah..in maybe a few hours maybe I would bring Pip to life again and write..
That is what I LOVE to do right? :)

Oh my.

theory #1

Assalamualaikumm..

Hello you good people! :D

How are ya? I'm OBVIOUSLY fine..

Well,yesterday was my birthday..yeeehaaa..I'm officially 18 now *yeah I hate that =="

Okay,birthday post coming soon..

Now,let me share with you something..

I read somewhere that..There was this one story,about a student and his Professor..

It was more of a religious debate actually..and It started to touch the Question of God..

But,the resolution given by the student,well..it was fascinating..

Nevertheless,I just want to take the theory and give it a little twist..

"There is no such thing as DARKNESS..It is just a state where there is LESS LIGHT"

I was fascinated by that and I actually use it..

To be a positive person..

Everytime that someone came up to me,feeling down..and saying..

"I'm not smart..I'm never gonna make it"

I say,"Well,there's no such thing as not smart..It's just a state where you lack of knowledge..Go search for it"

Surprisingly,it made them smile :)

Most importantly,it give them hope..

I know,that with what we experience in the world today,with the unstabilities that cross our lives,being positive seems so hard..and I mean it..And it's true..but,just try..

"There is no such thing as giving up..there is just a state where,there is less hope.."

At the end of the day..there is still,even if it's little..To start it all over again..and Shine :D

D.O.N.T L.O.S.E H.O.P.E :)

less words,BIG meaning :)

Assalamualaikum..
As I have lived this sweet 18 years of my beautiful life..
I have endured a lot of people..
And most of them,I appreciate for their sole,pure kindness :)
Well,the others..yeah,I appreciate them too,although they do piss me off in some way..I thank you too,because you made me the strong person I am today :)

As the calendars in the whole Malaysia stated today,16th May..
I want to express my deep gratitude,appreciation to ALL MY TEACHERS..
Let me list them:

1)Teachers at Smart Reader Kindergarten.
You made me went through all those playful,yet developing years :)
Hooyeah,my childhood was somewhat awesomeeee! :D

2)Teachers at SK Taman Midah.
3)Teachers at SK S2 Bandar Kinrara.
You made me achieve 5A's in UPSR :)
And you really made me learn about life..

4)Teachers at SMK S4 Bandar Kinrara.
Lastly,
Sekolah Berasrama Penuh Integrasi Rawang :)
You made me obtain 9A's in PMR and SPM..
And really made me face the tough stuff  :D

You see :)
Oh yeah..to my Standard 4&5 Tution centre..
And to ALL you dedicated teachers out there! :D
You raised me well ;)

And of course..

My FIRST Teachers in life is surely..

MY MOM AND DAD :)

You made me believe in myself and was always there for me!

You made me,a VERY Bright Student,that I am today :)

Thanks Ibu and Ayah :D

Yeahh..you guys are the best Teachers that a naive daughter could ever get :p 

And,I love you :)

Sincerely,

Once a dorky,plain,amusing student,

Now a Doctor-To-Be,

Miza Syakirah Binti. Mohd Razif :D

before closing my eyes..

Assalamualaikumm..
And a happy life good people..
When I was a child,there was not a lot to think about..all I see was fun,colors and happiness..
But then,as I grow up..there were the other feelings..
Like,sadness..guilt..regret..
Responsibility,confidence..and fear..
Now,I bet..that the first time we felt those feelings..We were scared..we lost hope,and gave up..
At the verge of growing up..
I caught myself,thinking a lot..even though people see me,on the surface that I was not mature..which I was always denying..The truth was,I was always thinking..
Thinking,thinking,thinking..and sometimes,it even gets me in my head!
I didn't realize,that there were a lot to think about..
And at some point,I was terrified..because,in all that thinking..there were,POSSIBILITIES..
What if this?..What if that?..Should I?..Would I?
All these questions..all these,complicate things..all these foreign feelings and insights..
Thus,it reconnects us to the fact that..we are just humans..Humans that are ordinary,plain..
WE WERE VULNERABLE..
Even though that each of us has our own specialty,we still need each other,we still rely in others..
THAT'S WHAT WE CALL,COMPLETING EACH OTHER..MAKING US WHOLE AND COMPLETE..
I have a lot of dreams,that everyday in my life..I wished and prayed that those dreams,will come true..
We still hoped on God,the one that is all powerful and mighty..Allah S.W.T..
You know,I always was interested in reading..anything that can feed me something..even with the slightest info and knowledge..I was always hunger for more..And I want to thank my Parents for guiding me and training me in such a precious gift..The gift of obtaining knowledge and searching for them..
I thank Allah,for such a blessing to me..
And to that..one of these days..I realized,that..from the moment I was in my mother's womb..
I HAD A PURPOSE..
More like a mission to accomplish..a piece of puzzle to be put and complete it..
But,there must be something that's obstructing my path and disrupting my view..
I get very playful,and lost my way..I was not me..
But Praise to Allah,He has guided me..and always showing me the correct path when I was astray..
Now,that is what we call,Allah's love..What we humans was actually missing in our empty lives..But,as I said,we were always distracted...
 I had said in my older posts before..life was complicated..humans,are complicated..
We could come up with a new silly theory and agree with that..
But that was one of the mistakes that human does..Theories..
To tell you the hard truth..if I want to elaborate this..It would be,at least a million words..And I would be delighted to tell you,my silly theories sometimes :)
Theories that maybe,some fantasies,or old folklore of the past..
It was always you,to decide..look,more choices..more thinking..
Whatever it is,I would gladly amuse you all..
And I want to apologize for my extensive ranting this time round..
It's just that,before I close my eyes tonight..
I feel that,at least,I can send a message to people..
Well,not much of a message,but more of some advice,wisdom..you tell yourself..
It came from the bottom of this such humble little heart,and hoped to make people feeling warm..
Feeling,what I am feeling..The feel,of our hearts unite,and in maximum tranquility..

And..lighting up,Hope :)

speechless.. -_-

Assalamualaikum..
Hello people :)
Stay Awesome,kay?

Love you guys :)

Sincerely,Me..

completing each other..

Assalamualaikum..
Ah yess..
Finally,I got the chance to drive outside from my resident area..Kinda scary at first..
This morning: "Okay,by 10 we're leaving..You're gonna drive me to Mid-Valley.." My mum said..

I was like O.O ...haha..*of course I didn't express it in front of my mother =.="

So,it was fine..thank God,Ibu was beside me :)
Well,that's not about the post I'm about to write pun..huahua..Let's save that for another day! :D
Okay,actually,I'm amazed with the relationship between my Mother and her friend,Aunty Noor :)
Gosh,lama kot..dari zaman ITM duluu duluu..
siap gadoh besau lagii..haha

I noticed something..
That people in life,tend to connect,but with diff personalities..
Like, "Opposites attract,camtuu ahh.." hahahaha..
What I saw was..
Well,Ibu was OBVIOUSLY the more hyper one laa..*Ibu,please dun be angry,thank you :3..haha JK!
And,Aunty Noor was the more quiet onee aa..

Then,comes me and Nadzey..hahaha
Well,I'm OBVIOUSLY the Drama one..*fine,I admit =.="..hahhahaha
And Nadzey,well..she's the hard headed,no drama one..hahaha..

Well,of course laa,people would say,
"Aikk? dah sorang tak suka drama..macam mana nak kawan nan org yg penuh nan drama?Puh-leaseee.."haha
Meh kita tengok concept magnet..The north pole will be attracted to the south pole..But will repel o the same pole kan??Like this..

True kan?

Now,I'm not saying that.people with drama cannot be friends with other people who has drama..Can ..

But maybe,if they were close..One massive drama would occur! who knows?

Nevertheless,ada je,kawan baik..but they got along just fine.. :)

Pape un..

YOUR ATTITUDE IS IMPORTANT.. *My Mum always says that,k thanks Mom! :)

By attitude,will scope into Akhlak too..

Baik akhlak,baik peribadi..well,you are GOING A LONG WAY :)

Trust Me :)

Lets make a difference in our lives,people! :)

loved,and gratitude..

Assalamualaikumm..

Even with the shocking turn of events..
I just want to thank everyone that has given me tremendous support and love :)
My Ibu Ayah,Siblings,Relatives,Friends,and to anyone thru the light or dark :)
I felt really, Loved :)

I just want to thank Allah for such blessing I have in this life..
But,sometimes..when the grief comes,we just don't see it..
Now,that is true!

"Sometimes,we are just too focused on one object until we miss the whole picture"
-Via Rick Castle :) *love yah!

Hokayy..thanks again peepssa!
Oh yeah,and to my loyal readers! I love you all! :D

p/s:imma cat,what do you expect? :)

Dear Allah Al-Mighty,
Alhamdulillah,I want to thank and raise my Syukur,for all your blessings and grace..I hope that You will repay all their kindness and love with rewards of Jannah,Insya-Allah..Even when they will leave one day,and I will leave too,from this beautiful world you gave us..May we are placed in the Circle of your true,and obeying servants..and may we be the ones who will achieve our highest goals..That is,to be your true servants,and the people whom will live in Jannah,when the Time of abolition comes..
Ameen :')

me.

Assalamualaikum..

If you are..
My Parents..
My Relatives..
My Friends..
My Long lost contact..
Even if you're just a stranger on the street *except the scary ones =.="

Nevertheless..
When you ask for my help..
I WOULD GIVE ALL MY HEART TO HELP YOU..

I don't know,maybe that's one of my strong points..
It was always in my nature..
To help..
And,knowing this,really encourage more on my doctor career..
:) Insya-Allah

Even if sometimes,that I made face..
Okay,I know,that's wrong..and I'm improving that..
actually,I don't mind..
Anyway..I'll help in any way I can..
But if I can't,then I'll tell..that I can't..but Insya-Allah I can..coz I'm a no downer person! :D
or you just pissed me off..or you made me do it with a wrong expression..
Then,Imma get very angry ya'll !
NOTE THAT..

I'm trying too become a better person here..
And I'm really trying hard for it..
So don't blow me up..

So yes..

I love that..

"When you just couldn't make the world feel better,start by making yourself feel better.."

Trust me,Everything will fall into place :)

keep on trying..

Assalamualaikumm..

Okay guys..

I've done it! And now..

I really hope I can get it :)

Insya-Allah.. :D

Let's all never leave Allah behind okay? 

Chayok for me :)

And you guys too! :D 

My prayers are always with you ! :)

noted.

the cat fell in love with the hawk..

Assalamualaikum..
He's and archer..I'm an archer..

Okay,I think I'm in love..
Oh,I KNOW I'M IN LOVE :D

Okay,since that falling in love with a real person is not my priority now..
Well,what's wrong if imma falling in love with a person who will never know..huahua..
Okay Okay,lemme break the secret..hehehe..

Brace yourselves!
*drum roll

Taadaa! :D

Haha,seems ridiculous..okay =="

Okay,here's Jeremy Renner :)

To tell you the truth..I just can't be obsessed with any actor or singer or etc..

But this time,I guess it was an exception..huahua :P

Wow,Jeremy Lee Renner :)

Okay,he's handsome..

and he's adorable..

and he's such a gentleman..

In what way?

Shhhhh..it's a secret.. ;)

Kbyee :D

mistakes..

Assalamualaikum..
Yes,this time round,it was my mistake..
It was not Dad's,or Mum's..
IT WAS MINE..
Honestly,when I received the news..I broke down and cried..I sent the news to my father and mother..

UiTM,Asasi Sains..

When I checked,it was my last choice..
Was this a test,or a payback for my unlimited sins?
What was God trying to tell me?
I wanted to cry and just forget about it..but I can't..
Even when I was on the phone with my mum pun,I cannot cry..
She told me to go and reflect myself,instead..I got really angry and done more sins..
And I'm sorry mum,for that..you know I'm not good with words..so,I'm really sorry..
I tried to consult with my friends..was UiTM that bad until you got so angry?
Oh yes,they told me that it was good too,and that made me feel good too..
I was happy for a moment..that a lot of my friends that got UiTM..
But this morning I woke up and got a really heavy burden in my heart..
And I knew..that I didn't want this too..You were right..that..it's going to affect my future..
And yes,I was jealous with everyone else..
 The truth was,that I wanted to get UIA so badly,and I really thought that with dad there,that I'm sure to get it..
BUT I WAS WAS WRONG..DEAD WRONG..

Then,Dad doesn't want to do anything about it..he said that there's nothing that I can do about it..
So,I have to accept this then..
And Mum,I'm sorry for making you sad again..and before..

I'm Blaming Myself for all of this..
But,just for the record..I did worked hard for it..
Just,maybe I seemed playful,but I did the best I could..
I prayed,and doa,and prayed..I thought about it everyday..I dreamed..I wished..
But I realized,I didn't do it very well enough..
Or this is a test..
Or,I am cursed for the rest of my life..
I don't know..But now,I'm just reflecting myself more and more..And I'm going to keep quiet after this and think more..Think about everything that's happening,and being better in life..

Then again, I really need someone to talk about this..
But I guess, that it's my punishment as well..
So,I'm giving up now..
and I'm sorry..
But I'm just too tired for all of this..
I really do..
I don't give up easily..but I am seriously..seriously..losing hope..
Now,It's empty.

being strong..

Assalamalaikumm..

"I am strong"

Such a simple line,only three words..
Anyone can say it,anyone would have started it..
You could even write it down,without difficulty..
Oh come on,I ate it for breakfast,some say..

The cold,hard truth was..
If it were too simple,then why are there still people crying and lose hope?
Did anyone ever,truly say it,with all his heart?
Can you write it down,without the shaking of your hands?
If you did ate it for breakfast,why didn't you digest it?

Ladies and gentlemen..
The facts were,it was all false and phony..
All screwed up and lies..

Lies,Lies,Lies..
Then again,who am I to tell?
Who am I to tell,any person who's reading this..

"Hey,you! You know you;re not strong! You're weak! Weak as ever!"

Now,would you ever accept that?
Ever anticipate it upon yourself?

NO NO NO NO NO NO..
That's what you'll do..You'll look up into the person's eyes,and tell them..
YOU ARE WRONG..

Yesterday,and today..
I watched two movies,one was Battleship,and The Avengers..

Personally,I'm really attracted to a soldier's live..

And these two movies really portrays that,so am recommending then both to ya'll :D

Well,what's a soldier is,they are..

Very focused,full of strength and will..

Actually,I had some intentions in the past to join the army..But,I was doubtful then..

But,now..I'm really determined..If I ever had the chance..I would join the army..

So that,no one would ever toy me around anymore..NO ONE..

Now kids,the moral of this post was *got carried away tadii..

Be strong, even if you feel that you are full of weakness..

Never let anyone tell you that, you are not strong..NEVER..

Remember that :)

kakak saya :D

Assalamualaikum :)
Happy Sunday Guys!
Totally awesome!
Well,yeah..yesterday was a happy Saturday too :D
Met up with my darlings, Kak Mar and Zeyzey :p
Well,the reason was,nak jumpa Kak Mar yang laaaaammmmmmaaaaaaa gila tak jumpa..
We two miss our sister meh :)

Mai tengok :p

 Okay..ni kat bowling..tak nampak sangat kan? huahua..tapi tak nampak ke Zeyzey smiling atas tuhh :)

Well,as you can see tu kan..hahah.. ehem,Imma the winner! Hoyeahh :P *be jelly :)

Ini kanak kanak yang sangat comel,awwww.. :)

Ah yes,please notice Zeyzey's charming smile...huahua ;)

Candid! :D

Inilah Kakak Mar saya dan Zeyzey :D

Comel kan kan kan??

Gosh,miss you guys already!

Or should I say, Girls :P, *kay,not funny =,="

Till' we meet again darlings! :')

something we call..human..

Assalamuaalaikum..
Ah yes,MANUASIA..
Ape tuh,I mean,what is that?

Human..

Human,asses their surrounding everytime,every second..
There's this one thing that HUMANS loveeee to do..

JUDGING..
Now,human memang suka judge..

Saw someone wearing something funny..
"Euwww,seriously..what is she wearing?"

Heard something bad about someone..
"Seriously? I've always known tut was a tut"

Read something in the internet..
"Really? Tut is divorced? Thank God,memang nampak tak sesuai ponn.."

What hell?
Now,something that humans MALAS to do..

RESEARCH..
Memang malas nak buat..
If can,assumptions all the way..
tahu nak kena suap with info je..don't want to like,seek for the cold,hard truth..
Human,like to use only what they hear..No need to waste energy on searching for the truth..
BAGUS KE TU? HUH?!

It's really devastating tahu? The ones who's the victim in these kind of situations..
What more if the person is not the kind of person that wouldn't say anything to defend themselves..
Of course that people would call them coward..but,to me..these kind of people is just the one that's not interested to be involved in these kind of BS..Because,kadang kadang,orang yang melemparkan macam macam nak dengar pun..kata kita buat alasan la,ape la..apa? Ingat orang berjaya tuh banyak alasan ke?

Mum said,
"Berdiam diri bukan bermakna kita salah and kalah..menyalahkan orang lain and being loud does not mean you are right either"

So yeah,note-to-self and all you people out there..
DON'T jump to conclusion in anything,but DO search for the truth..

Paham? Understand? Got it?
GOOD..

the one that got away..

Assalamualaikum :)

I am soooo into this song right now..

Tiffany Alvord and Chester See are just, sheer awesome! Haha..

Gosh,I love you guys :))))

Oh,and to you..Please promise me..

THAT IT IS NOT OVER..

Thanks,TACT :)

=,="

Assalamualaikum! :)

Too many words,soo little time..
Hooyeahh..
I think that my life is turning in such a face pace now..
But to my amusement,it ain't too fast for this gal..oh yeah ;) Lets laugh,an EVIL one..MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAAAAAA *kdiamm =,="

For starters,Imma being a teacher for this one week..off to train the new employee at the bakery..haih,I tot freedom was above me oledi..
Never mind,I can handle it..

Next,ahh,what do we have here..
I'm meeting Kak Mar and Nadzey this weekend! Much much excitement! Yeeehaa!
Okay,that's not too much to handle kan? =,="

Then,errr..
I'm..going to miss..
Haha,no need to know..just cut that out..

K,that's kinda all of it..
Boiiyee! :D