#sadlyfe

This year was supposed to be great...

I mean, in the beginning everything went great. I won the election, chosen to go for the trip to Japan and I touched a few hearts along the way with some of my actions but..now, everything is just falling apart...

My degree results just gotten from bad to worst case scenario...I got into an accident and it was all my fault...I ruined my mom's phone...I ruined the first day of fasting...I almost ruin my relationship with my mom...my ear infection reoccured and now I'm worried sick of my eardrum has a hole...

I'm just so sad with everything. I'm getting fatter and possibly dumber..I'm getting sloppy and slow...everybody thinks I'm a sad mess and I'm always unprepared and messy.

I feel angry with myself. I'm never going to go far in life despite my dreams. I might as well forget all of them and try to go by each day as it is.

I should stop standing out and play safe from now on. Never take risk and keep it small. I'm not destined for greatness. I never was.

My friends are moving forward, achieving this and that here and there...my friend is getting married at 21! And here I am, blaming myself for anything.

I'm an effin nobody. I'm a mistake and never should have been borned...