This year was supposed to be great...
I mean, in the beginning everything went great. I won the election, chosen to go for the trip to Japan and I touched a few hearts along the way with some of my actions but..now, everything is just falling apart...
My degree results just gotten from bad to worst case scenario...I got into an accident and it was all my fault...I ruined my mom's phone...I ruined the first day of fasting...I almost ruin my relationship with my mom...my ear infection reoccured and now I'm worried sick of my eardrum has a hole...
I'm just so sad with everything. I'm getting fatter and possibly dumber..I'm getting sloppy and slow...everybody thinks I'm a sad mess and I'm always unprepared and messy.
I feel angry with myself. I'm never going to go far in life despite my dreams. I might as well forget all of them and try to go by each day as it is.
I should stop standing out and play safe from now on. Never take risk and keep it small. I'm not destined for greatness. I never was.
My friends are moving forward, achieving this and that here and there...my friend is getting married at 21! And here I am, blaming myself for anything.
I'm an effin nobody. I'm a mistake and never should have been borned...
Monday 22 June 2015
#sadlyfe
Inspired, Kaira R. Kenway at 01:17:00
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I brought you to this world and had loved you more than myself from the moment I knew about your existence in my womb.
I break my heart dearly to know that you are not happy.
Life is tough sayang. We just have to be kind and work hard. someone else's good apple might be your bad. You just need to embrace and explore.
what important is to be happy. Despite of anything. Say, I scolded you over something, try to be happy that I am still around to be with you? You know that kind of perspective?
Your happy days are here and they will continue to be here. Ibu always have you in my prayers, for your happiness, success and well being.
May you and adik-adik have the best of both worlds. Dunia dan akhirat.
Your post seems too sad..
You are fat??? say who. Ok now, I am angry :)
hehe me love you. despite of my scoldings... hehe.
Ibu
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